last weekend

This week has definetly been bitter sweet. Like I said in my last post, I'm pretty torn over leaving, so like my roommate has noticed I have been grumpy.
This weekend wasnt any better. Last night I hung out with the girls downstairs for a while, went to a movie(Silent Hill-do NOT waste your money on this movie, it isnt scary OR good!), went for a donut run that had no donuts, and then started watching Bourne Identity but fell we all fell asleep so we stopped.
Today I slept in really late, bummed around until 2, then did printmaking and ceramics until 9:15 tonight. This etch is going to be really good I think, and I think this firing is also going to be good. Im trying a lot of new things, but I spent about 5 hours spraying glaze on ceramics, and I didnt find the vent until about 3 hours in, so needless to say my lungs are full of what are probably carcinogenic glazes.
After that I went to the SAC dance for a while, ate supper and homemade donuts across the hall, went bowling, and then hung out more and talked to people. Now I am kinda pissed off, because it seems like my friends realize that these are our last times together, but they don't care enough to try and make it memorable. I really wanted to go to a party at someones house with one friend, so he said he would call when he went, but never did. Then I talked to him later and he was like "oops, sorry, oh well".....argh!!
I'm excited for my family to come, hopefully I can get everything done that I need to before they come so that I won't be running around all stressed out when they get here. Now I am going to bed, so goodnight world.

Purgatory

So I'm pretty sure I now know what purgatory would feel like, if it actually existed. These last few weeks have been pretty umm not stressful, but just well hard to describe. I want to graduate so that I can be free from classes and homework, things I have despised my entire life, but at the same time I don't want to graduate because I will definetly miss my best friends and all the amazing people that I have met this year, and in the past 4 years. I also can't wait for my family to come because I havent seen 3/5 of them since Boxing Day, and a lot has happenend since then, but then again I feel like I could wait forever because them coming means me leaving Dordt. I also am struggling with leaving Sioux Center, believe it or not, because lots of my good friends are staying here for another year, so I would like to be with them, but I also want to go out and explore the rest of the world besides this little villa. There are a lot of amazing places out there, and I want to experience them, but that means that I have to start with new relationships all over again. Which is even scarier. Not that I dont like new relationships, am I just not very good at them.
GIFT on Sunday also encouraged that whole schpeel. Seniors went up to the front, and people who wanted to say goodbye or share a last moment with us were encouraged to come up. I sat up there on the stage, really hoping some certain people would come up, but they didnt. Another friend from PLIA did, which was really awesome, but I was saddenend by another person who was standing near to me(physically) didnt even acknowledge I was there.

On another note, this past weekend was INSANE. SAC had S^3, and it basically fell apart the day before. The company we signed a contract with to supply the inflatables screwed up hardcore and left us hanging, so we had to basically replan the entire game situation that night. It was very stressful. Then I had to drive to Omaha to pick up all the stuff at 5 AM on saturday morning, be at the event all day, and then drive the stuff back in a 26 foot Uhaul on Sunday morning. Needless to say, I am still recovering, but at least the event went well and people liked it(for the most part). There was also some troubles with people on SAC, but I won't get into that.

Well thats enough of a novel for now,
Mark

Who is my audience?

Does anyone actually read my blog? Just wondering if I should actually take the time to keep this thing up, so lend me a comment if you actually do!
By the way, did anyone find that todays GEN 300 class was the best yet? Not in terms of content, but it sure was interesting, I actually stayed awake for the entire period!
I have a presentation worth 40% of my grade in the class tommorrow, (sen. sem), so wish me luck!

Complications

So my life just got a lot more confusing, the part that is deciding what to do next year anyways. I wasnt even considering working at the humble bean because of the money and VISA problems, but today I got a call from a girl I met on spring break who works at Hills Photo who basically asked me to come and work for them, doing photography. So now I have even more to think about.
Other than that, things have been good, I barbequed deer sausages for supper tonight, so its time to chow down.